pc didn't booted with partition corrupted (after a cd write)
windows recovery didn't worked (as usual)
the only path was reinstall !
loaded the ubuntu cd into tray (live version)
rebooted then i run the ntfsfix /dev/hda
voila windows rescued.
While there installed thunderbird (better for security)
ps: please ms send some cash to ntfstools or ubuntu
they have saved you from curses